CHAPTER 29

days passed



nothing happened ...



everything was the same

me & zaina together

me& m7amd together

me& ali friends




i woke up and called zaina to go out



she was busy with her mother



i called ali he was busy with  his mother


i called m7amd he was with his family



im alone ???





why is everyone with their mothers?



i opened my iphone


checked insta



oh my god!!


its mothers day




and i forgot to buy something to my mother


but its too late


it 5 pm


where can i find something nice to her


i should buy something right now and also a cake



she will hate me if she find out



i went to the bathroom


washed my face took a shower

went out

curled my hair

applied some make up

wore my clothes and accessories

took my bag and went by my car to salhiya complex


and i forgot that i forgot my credit card in zaina's car

me "OH MY GOD WHAT I'M GONNA DO NOW!!"

i have no money in my bag

so i went to my house again


told my dad

he gave me his card


and i went again to cartier



bought bracelet


and went quickly to the car


10 mins later


i realized that i forgot my dad's card in cartier



so? i went back to cartier salhiya

and took it


and went back


bought a red velvet cake


, balloons and flowers




and went to mom house it was 9 and half i guess





the maid opened the door


went inside


none of mom and abdullah was their


i asked nina "the maid"


where is mom and 3bdallah??


nina: they traveled

me: what?? where ? when? why?


nina: i dont know

me: ok



i went back to the car

shocked


i was hungry so i decided to go to b&w - qurtoba




and thinking


she didn't tell me

why??


where did she go to??


and why?


what about abdulla's school??


what the fuck is going on??


i called grandma


and asked her



me: alo?

grandma: alo?

me: mama mariam?

grandma: 3ayshaa??

me: la ama mnera

grandma: halla mnera *mad voice*

me: shlounich ? shakhbarech ?

grandma: el7mdellah

me: wen omy?

grandma: al7een ts2leen??

me: ...

grandma: ra7t fransa

me: 3bod weyaha?

grandma: eeh mayaby yhed omaah

me: aa ... bro7hom?

grandma: la weya khalich jasim w khaltich amany

me: laysh??

granmda: *she cried*

me: shnuu!!! ta .. ta7ch-ch-ay-y t7achya shfeha omy???


she cried louder and louder


me: OMYY SHFEEHAAA????


she closed the phone


something bad is happening to mom

i called her again she didn't pick it up


i cried

trying to call anyone


but i no one is answering me



i went back home

dad and a7lam were looking at me

holding the cake, flowers and the cratier

put them at the able

dad: shfech?

a7lam: laysh ma36ety omech ?

i didn't say a word


walked to my room and lied on my bed


closed my eyes and cried


dad came


and sat next to me


dad: mnera?

mnera?

me: hmm?

dad: shfeich? sh9ar beinch w bain omech?

me: dad i-i-i cant talk

i cried louder

and he hugged me

i hugged him


me: omy feha shay


dad: shfeha?

me:i don't know

shes not in the house

ra7t franc with 3bod khalty w khaly

dad: haw laysh??


me: ma adryyyy , dget 3la mama mariam galtly enha msafra w gtlha shfeha bchat w sdta bwyyhy

i'm sure feha shay

*crying*

thaga cancer ?

dad: m- ma-adry


entay namy w ana achof shel salfa

me: okay

he kissed my forehead


and closed they door& lights


and went out


i cried all night long


till i woke up the next day


went down


and i heard my dad talking to a7lam


dad: walla madry shlon bagolaha

a7lam: chena 7asa ena feha cancer

dad: shakly bakhith mnera awl matkhl9 el finals w nro7

a7lam: w btkhleenyyy:(

dad: taben tyeen mthlan?

a7lam: 7bebe shfeeik atghshmr ma3aik

...







i went back up to my room




I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT I JUST HEARD


MOM?

CANCER?

IS IT REAL?

I DONT THINK I'M GONNA BE THE SAME ME ANYMORE



i cried
dad came to me after 5 mins

dad: mnera?

me; i know... sma3tik


dad: muta tkhal9en finals?

me: mu al7een finals

dad; y3ny tgdren tyen weyay

me: eeeeeh


........







i went with dad to france


we arrived at 2 am

dad: yla namy w bacher el9b7 awl matgomen nro7laha

me: ok t9b7 3la khair


dad: went men ahlah


i set the alarm at 7 am


when it rang


i woke up bsrrr33aa woke dad up


dad: n6raaaay b3d shwaay



i shouted ETHA MNTA GAYEM ARO7 BRO7Y!!! 3ADY MA HAMNYYY

dad: was shocked of me


he woke up



we didn't ate breakfast



we arrived the hospital


i ran like a crazy


to reach my mom's room

when i entered

the nurses were around her


me: i came closer and closer to her bed


nurse : shes gone


....



i turned around

me; yuba?

shgal?

matat??


dad couldnt say a thing



i shouted and cried as hard as i could


i cant believe that!!!


mom???


shes gone!!!


i went back to the hotel



and my eyes were full of tears

red

i was shaking


my dad was talking to 3abod

i lied on bed


i remembered every beautiful moment i spent with mom


she was my first love

and she's gonna be my last love


i love her

i just want to tell her i'm sorry but its too late

 she's gone

forever

i regret everything

i regret every time i shouted at her

i regret every time she asked me for something and i said NO to her

i regret every time i told her I HATE YOU
i swear i don't mean it

i regret every time she told me i miss you aby achofch and i told her i'm busy

i wish i lived with her

i wish i made time for her

i wished i showed her that i love her

she thinks that i don't love her

she thinks i hate her

she thinks i forgot her



i swear i dont



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