chapter 8

me: 3awash yousef yabeny a6la3 ma3ah elyoum
aisha: 6el3ay
me: hmm madryy
aisha: w ana bawa3ed 3aziz ba3d
me: 3ad wen nrou7
aisha: walla madry .. shrayech 360
me: hahaha tha7kteny
aisha: hehehe
me: khanro7 mukan maku a7d
aisha: haw lish
me: taben khalg allah kela yshofch ? shebgolon etha shftay a7d y3rfch
aisha: inzaain weeyn?
me: oh nsayt elyoum khaly osamah raje3 men france 3elaj
aisha: yooh nsayt 
me: huff shnswe b3dd


at 7 pm we all went to my uncle's house because he just arrived from france 3elaj so everyone was there

i have cousins "men my mother side" mu wayed m3ahom
they are: leyanah- zamzam "sisters" and rawan

g3adaw weyana

chethy ma3a el-suwalif

they told us ena kel wa7da had crush on a guy

i was shocked i remembered ena kanaw yahal tafkerhom kelish not the way i think akher marra they heard me talking to 3essa w they told their mother and she told my mom bs mama ma9dgtha

from that time` magmt ashofhom w bel-zuwara mag3d m3ahom

they were honest with us 

bs i cant trust them so i wont tell them about both yousef and m7amd

mom: manour yadetch tabe eljam3ya w ge6eha baitha w b3den t3aly hne
me: al7een?
mom: ee ta3bana rdeha
me: ok

leyanah told me enha btye ma3ay
so gtlha okay

when i went outside i saw leyanah - zamzam - rawan and aisha barra
kelhom beyon ma3ay

its okaay

wdayt grandma qurtoba co-op
w ga6etha her house

leyanah: khanroo7 bacher 360 please
me; madrey
aisha: la elkhames elyay
rawan: ee sunday 3nde exam
zamzam: tara ekhty t2alef etha omy martht?
leyanah: hufff khala9 next Thursday


week passed


at thursday men 4 pm the girls 3endy 3ala ma we get ready and the the way time we9alna at 7 pm

we ate dinner in cacao room


w 6al3na men 360 11 and half
zamzam and leyanah 7anechaw ela yabon sa7el qurtoba

when we got out 2 cars la7gtna
wa7ed la7gna len qurtoba w ra7 bs elthany kelish mu rathy yroo7

re7t sa7el qurtoba 
it was 12 am

i parked 3ashan leanah and zamzam

ela msakra

and that red car parked yamna w i opened the window 

the guy said: ambeeh tara ana 7ady ta3ban ekhthaw raqma
and the guy who sat yamah was uglier than a dog!

aisha: manor gal "ambeh"
manor: awl marra ashuf 9bay ygol ambeh
aisha: ely ysog mazyon

the two guys were waiting for us while deciding 

aisha: mnera la jekar magdr

there were 2 cars yam sa7el shafona 3balhom mwa3den

aisha: manor emshay EMSHAAY!
me: inzain latkhr3enyy!!!!

i dont know how suddenly a million cars was around us!!

shit!!! 

zamzam: men wayn 6la3aw hathouuul!!!
leyanah: yumaaaa akhaaf
aisha: lat9arkhooon tnarfzoon
rawan: OBOOY DAAG!!!

when she said that we closed the music and faja'a ba3d 9rakh 9ar hdooooo2

rawan: halla yuba
her dad: omech daga tgol lel7einch maw9ltay elbait
rawan: eh ga3d ng6 bnat khalty byothom
her dad: 6awltw
rawan: la tkhaf shwy w ana raj3a
her dad: khala9 okay salam

she closed it

and the mess started again

leyanah: ahalna kelhoom b-qurtooba layshofonaaa
me: SEEKTAAAW!!!
*silence*

me: lat9arkhun atnrfz ba9fe6 3end ay bait greb 3shan yro7on

at the other side
the street was kinda thej w i parked in a house hoping yro7on

wgefaw in the street w theres a car crushed another bs ma9ar shay bs el-guys teyam3w

leyanah: husha 9arat hushaa abe ard elbaait

aisha: walla adf3la bs laythawshoon

that car ely kant la7gtna came to me

the guy: shfekom
me: mu gadra a6ale3 elsayara enta sad 3aley w elshare3 wegaf :)
the guy: huh khala9 ana a6l3ha rekby sayarty 
he went to his friend to tell him

leyanah: walla el3athem mayrkb elsayaraa wen ga3den
me: ee adre inshallah markb syarta w ag3d 3nd rfeja

he came

me: allaaaah yerthaa 3aliik kel ahaly hny wala etha shafona yswolna mshakel
the guy: ee ba6l3ha lich

me: enta sad 3aley wakher w ana a6le3ha
the guy; uf hatha yezay inzain
he went

aisha; shfe hatha mnafes
me; 7grryyy

im trying to get out of this place 
w everyone helped us by waving to us ely reej3ay shwyy w stop w chthy

when i wanted to go
a guy opened his window 
" mat3rfen tsogen? tawch m6l3a el- license ?"

me; chub
i dont know how i told him chub bs 7aail narfzzny

the guy replied " ta3aly 6geny ba3ad"

w i went home so fast and still that car la7gtna
before la o9al my house

*phoneringing*

rawan:ome ome

she answered 
and she told her ena shes waiting for her in my house barra

w that car la7gtna wgft shwy b3ed 3an my house w i told him
the guy: uff ekhthaw raqma khal9ony
me: khala9 we9alna bautna roo7 yer7am omek
the guy: al7eeen ana sa3dtkom tadren cham wa7ed la7gkom 100 alf wa7ed!
aisha; ok ya36ek el3afya mashkur matg9r khala9 manby t9er salfa

w re7t my house w elghaby wagef jedamy!
om rawan shafeta

nzalt rawan

w ana bage6 leanah and zamzam their home

when i drove my car mesha waray

shit!!!

lama 6al3t men qurtoba ra7!! after along time chasing 

ga6ayt leyanah and zamzam their house w r7t my house and slept 

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chapter 7

over-thinking is killing me




i cant live in his lie anymore





i cant see my mom like this




she doesn't know whats happening behind her



im trying to find a way that i can let her know this




but i don't want something bad to happen




cause they are my parents i love them




so i decided 




and i will do it









12 am

finally my parents came back

i was in the room

telling my self

" i can do it"

" i will do it"

...


....


....


i went to their room

my mom was sitting on the bed talking to grandma 

my dad wasn't there

as soon as she closed the phone i told her


" yuma ana lazem agolch"



mom: shetgolen?

me: oboy ...

mom: shfee?




me: he's cheating in you

my mom was so shocked that her mouth was open 

the way i told her was really stupid

mom: entay shga3ed tgolen?

suddenly my dad popped 

" ENTAY SHETGOLEEEEEN?"

yelling at me



he was in the bathroom

fuck am i that stupid i forgot that maybe he will be in the bathroom 

wrong time

wrong place

wrong way to say it


me: ana ga3d agol el9ij!!

mom: shlun?

me: i heared him talking to a girl in the middle of the night walla sma3ta

mom: "laughed" ana kent ga3d a7achy

dad: khalay 3endch theqa feny

me: whaaat ?? yuma walla el3athem w tahawsht ma3ah w gale ena ga3d y7achy rfeja!

mom: ana knt daga 3aleh elfayer gabl cham youm

it shows that the night after maybe mom called dad but she wouldn't believe me

both of them shouted at me 


i cried

but i'm not that weak !
i'm gonna let her believe me

i took my daddy's phone

i told him to open it

he did

the truth is he wasn't afraid !

i searched "خلف بو2"
















"not found"




crap ! he changed it








suddenly i "dad's phone" received a whatsapp message






from "العنزي فهد"

its says 


"حبيبي"
"وينك"
"رديت البيت"

neyahaha

got youuuu

  i opened the chat

w i showed mom everything !

she really was shocked

when i saw the tear that fell from my mom's eye

i regretted doing this

i really don't know why the hell did i do that

whats wrong with me

i knew that mom isn't strong enough to know the truth

i blew up everything

they had a fight and my mom went out of the house 

12 and half am !!!




dad: 12 belail ween btro7een??

mom: wakher 3anyyy


and shes gone .....



dad: sheftay shsawetaaay?

i gave him my back and went to my room

i tried to call mom but i knew after that she forgot her phone in the house 



huhhhhh

" what have i done?''


"i wish i could run"


"away from this ship going under"


"im just trying to help"


"by showing the truth"


"i just hurt everyone else"


"i feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulder"


"what can i do ?"


"i just want to fix it''


"can i start again?"


"my best intentions keeps making a mess of things"


"i have to stay and face my mistakes"


" how can i get stronger and wiser to get through this?"


"my good isn't good enough "


"where can i find someone who will see how much i care"


"its another night of tears"


i cried as hard as i could 

i don't care how loud it was

i woke-up the next day

i went to the bathroom

when i got out

i found my parents in the living room

my mom was crying 

i blew up everything

when i came 

mom hugged dad 

and now they are ok!

she got mad at him just for a one night?

is that all she can do?

and now she trusts him again?

its over!

i want them to be back together

but there fight lasted for 1 night 

maybe he didn't leave that girl

huffff if i catch him again !!!!.......

day passed normally 



today is the first day at my collage #cba

i was afraid 

waayyeed  mu shwaya

i had to let my parents drive me there

and i dont know the way too!

when i was in the car

watching the girls and boys

my heart rate raised 

me; mabyy aroo77 akhaaaaf

dad: shnu tkhafen ? chena awal youm belmadresa

me: akhaaf 

mom: samay w yala nezlay

me: mabyyy 

both my parents laughed

mom: yalla nezlay manor khala9 kebarty e3tamday 3ala nafsch

i don't know why kent 7AAIL khayfa!

tear fell from my eye

dad; "laughed so hard"

tabecheen? men 9ij? shnu ykhare3 bel-jam3a?

me: madry wen arou7 ma adl ma a3rf shasawe mabyyy

mom: haw manoor men 9ijch tabchen yalla 3ad la tetdal3een

this conversation went up by letting both my mom and dad to drive me to the class

i wasn't embarrassed of me walking with my parents in the collage just like a little girl 
on her first day at school


i held my moms hand

me: yuma b6ny y3wrney

mom: 3adee

dad: shofay elnas sh7alathom maykhafon 3ade maku shay

me: yumma baraje3 yumaaaaa

we ran to the bathroom 

and of course dad asked everyone where is the restroom

till we went there

but i didn't throw-up 

my parents walked to me to the class

dakhlt ga3adt with the other girls and the doc was there

when i sat 

i saw mom&dad wore waving to me and smiling 

doc "laughed" law sma7taw

and they are gone

i hid my face

i was embarrassed when they did such a stupid thing!
lol


anyway


at the gathering
, friday 

after lunch

while eating dessert 

my mom said what happened to everyone and they laughed so hard

i chatted with aisha

me: 3awash yousef yabeny a6la3 ma3ah elyoum

aisha: 6el3ay

me; hmm madryy

aisha: w ana bchuf 3aziz ba3d

me: 3ad wen nro7

aisha: walla madryy



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