THE FINAL CHAPTER - 30

i wasted my life on those bullshit


i regret everything

after that my mom is gone,

i hated my life






zaina slept in my house for a week

then she went back to her family


i thought and thought

why am i doing this?


i'm a BITCH

i know that

but i'm gonna change

in a blink of an eye

a lot of things change 

i don't want to die this way

im not gonna be the same me anymore

i left zaina , m7amd and ali



----------------with zaina------------------

me: zaina i dont want to be who i am anymore


zaina: what you mean


me: i dont know what i was thinking about when i told you i love you

i never thought that i will be a lesbo someday

i want to change

i wanna be a good girl

i wanna be the old me

the girl who used to be with her mother all the time

the girl who asks her mother before doing any single thing

i hate my self

i hate everything

i dont wanna be lesbian anymore

please understand me you're my best friend my sister

i love you but this way

i want to end everything between us even our friendship

zaina: awh yeah i understand, 

...

...

...

zaina: mnera?

me: hmm?

zaina: i just want to tell you that i love you!

i will never forget you

i thought we're gonna be friends like before

but you asked me to end everything

you asked me to forget you

well, i cant and you should know that

-you are the best thing that ever  happened in my life

-you will be the one who i'll think about all the time

before i sleep 

when i have nothing to do

when i lie on bed doing nothing

when i wake up

when i listen to a love song

- you are the one i loved the most

more than myself 

more than anything

but i don't think you fell for me

if you did you wont let go of me

you would hold on me hold on to our love

you don't love me the way i love you

you will forget me easily 

but i won't forget you till the end of the world

mara7 y2thr feich hal kalam, so

goodluck in your life

and goodbye

me: bye


then i deleted her number



she was sad i know

But what can i do?






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-------------------with ali------------

ali knew about my mom

he called me:


ali: mnaor aby achofch

me: what ?? hhh no 3li noo

i'm gonna change i answered you to tell you that i want to forget you i will change

ali: mnera a7bich!!!!

me: ali! bye


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---------------with m7amd-----------
i sent him a text massage
telling him everything
he understood me
and we are over






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life is short

i realized that the mother is everything

she knows what's right and what's wrong

she loves us

she cares

she's the person we need

i lost her

who els do i have?

Stepmother ?

young brother?

fake friends?

people i have left?

i started to have these long nights where i just lay down in bed and remember things i wish them to come back

i will miss my old life

i will miss the old people 

i wish life goes on the way i want

they way i choose

the way i decide 







months later



i was in qurtoba co-op

with 3abod

then i saw zaina


she gave me that look

and her eyes  filled of tears
and she smiled

i smiled back

and went



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hey my lovely readers


i really love you guys

and this is the end

i will miss youuuu alot

i hate endings 


gooooooddddbbbbyyyyeeeeeee love you all :*****

CHAPTER 29

days passed



nothing happened ...



everything was the same

me & zaina together

me& m7amd together

me& ali friends




i woke up and called zaina to go out



she was busy with her mother



i called ali he was busy with  his mother


i called m7amd he was with his family



im alone ???





why is everyone with their mothers?



i opened my iphone


checked insta



oh my god!!


its mothers day




and i forgot to buy something to my mother


but its too late


it 5 pm


where can i find something nice to her


i should buy something right now and also a cake



she will hate me if she find out



i went to the bathroom


washed my face took a shower

went out

curled my hair

applied some make up

wore my clothes and accessories

took my bag and went by my car to salhiya complex


and i forgot that i forgot my credit card in zaina's car

me "OH MY GOD WHAT I'M GONNA DO NOW!!"

i have no money in my bag

so i went to my house again


told my dad

he gave me his card


and i went again to cartier



bought bracelet


and went quickly to the car


10 mins later


i realized that i forgot my dad's card in cartier



so? i went back to cartier salhiya

and took it


and went back


bought a red velvet cake


, balloons and flowers




and went to mom house it was 9 and half i guess





the maid opened the door


went inside


none of mom and abdullah was their


i asked nina "the maid"


where is mom and 3bdallah??


nina: they traveled

me: what?? where ? when? why?


nina: i dont know

me: ok



i went back to the car

shocked


i was hungry so i decided to go to b&w - qurtoba




and thinking


she didn't tell me

why??


where did she go to??


and why?


what about abdulla's school??


what the fuck is going on??


i called grandma


and asked her



me: alo?

grandma: alo?

me: mama mariam?

grandma: 3ayshaa??

me: la ama mnera

grandma: halla mnera *mad voice*

me: shlounich ? shakhbarech ?

grandma: el7mdellah

me: wen omy?

grandma: al7een ts2leen??

me: ...

grandma: ra7t fransa

me: 3bod weyaha?

grandma: eeh mayaby yhed omaah

me: aa ... bro7hom?

grandma: la weya khalich jasim w khaltich amany

me: laysh??

granmda: *she cried*

me: shnuu!!! ta .. ta7ch-ch-ay-y t7achya shfeha omy???


she cried louder and louder


me: OMYY SHFEEHAAA????


she closed the phone


something bad is happening to mom

i called her again she didn't pick it up


i cried

trying to call anyone


but i no one is answering me



i went back home

dad and a7lam were looking at me

holding the cake, flowers and the cratier

put them at the able

dad: shfech?

a7lam: laysh ma36ety omech ?

i didn't say a word


walked to my room and lied on my bed


closed my eyes and cried


dad came


and sat next to me


dad: mnera?

mnera?

me: hmm?

dad: shfeich? sh9ar beinch w bain omech?

me: dad i-i-i cant talk

i cried louder

and he hugged me

i hugged him


me: omy feha shay


dad: shfeha?

me:i don't know

shes not in the house

ra7t franc with 3bod khalty w khaly

dad: haw laysh??


me: ma adryyyy , dget 3la mama mariam galtly enha msafra w gtlha shfeha bchat w sdta bwyyhy

i'm sure feha shay

*crying*

thaga cancer ?

dad: m- ma-adry


entay namy w ana achof shel salfa

me: okay

he kissed my forehead


and closed they door& lights


and went out


i cried all night long


till i woke up the next day


went down


and i heard my dad talking to a7lam


dad: walla madry shlon bagolaha

a7lam: chena 7asa ena feha cancer

dad: shakly bakhith mnera awl matkhl9 el finals w nro7

a7lam: w btkhleenyyy:(

dad: taben tyeen mthlan?

a7lam: 7bebe shfeeik atghshmr ma3aik

...







i went back up to my room




I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT I JUST HEARD


MOM?

CANCER?

IS IT REAL?

I DONT THINK I'M GONNA BE THE SAME ME ANYMORE



i cried
dad came to me after 5 mins

dad: mnera?

me; i know... sma3tik


dad: muta tkhal9en finals?

me: mu al7een finals

dad; y3ny tgdren tyen weyay

me: eeeeeh


........







i went with dad to france


we arrived at 2 am

dad: yla namy w bacher el9b7 awl matgomen nro7laha

me: ok t9b7 3la khair


dad: went men ahlah


i set the alarm at 7 am


when it rang


i woke up bsrrr33aa woke dad up


dad: n6raaaay b3d shwaay



i shouted ETHA MNTA GAYEM ARO7 BRO7Y!!! 3ADY MA HAMNYYY

dad: was shocked of me


he woke up



we didn't ate breakfast



we arrived the hospital


i ran like a crazy


to reach my mom's room

when i entered

the nurses were around her


me: i came closer and closer to her bed


nurse : shes gone


....



i turned around

me; yuba?

shgal?

matat??


dad couldnt say a thing



i shouted and cried as hard as i could


i cant believe that!!!


mom???


shes gone!!!


i went back to the hotel



and my eyes were full of tears

red

i was shaking


my dad was talking to 3abod

i lied on bed


i remembered every beautiful moment i spent with mom


she was my first love

and she's gonna be my last love


i love her

i just want to tell her i'm sorry but its too late

 she's gone

forever

i regret everything

i regret every time i shouted at her

i regret every time she asked me for something and i said NO to her

i regret every time i told her I HATE YOU
i swear i don't mean it

i regret every time she told me i miss you aby achofch and i told her i'm busy

i wish i lived with her

i wish i made time for her

i wished i showed her that i love her

she thinks that i don't love her

she thinks i hate her

she thinks i forgot her



i swear i dont



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CHAPTER 28

someone opened the door


i was afraid

so i pushed ali and turned around to see who opened the door




it was



.....




..........










it was his mother !!




ali's mother: MNERA??

i was so shocked that my mouth was opened

i couldn't spell a word

ali: aah yuma ... mu .. muta yetay...


none of us said something ...

and both of us was shocked,,


i thought that my life is over now


she will tell a7lam and her family

and of course a7lam is going to tell my dad



i looked at the ground

i really don't know what to say nor do



ali's mother laughed : 7aya allah mneeraaa


suddenly i heard a voice

laughing and talking

there's more than one person in this house

not just ali's mother


1 min later

of standing gazing at ali's mother + i couldn't close my mouth yet


MNEERRRAAA!!!! *shocked voice*


"laughingggg"


it was a7lam and her sister


a7lam: shyaaaybeeech ??


i still couldn't find the right thing to say


i looked up at them

finding an evil smile on their faces


i closed my eyes wished that it was just a dream


i wish i didn't hugged him

i wish i didn't come here

i wish i ....


huhhh


there's nothing i can say

maku majal arage3 elmawthou3


ali's mother: athary m9a7ebha men zmaan??

a7lam: la yemkin 7baw b3th men elzuwara


i took my stuff and left the house without saying a word


a7lam: mneerraa ne6raay *shouting*


i was near the door downstairs

i wanted to leave

t3aly g3day


i gave her my back and made my way out


when i wanted to go inside the car


a7lam: mneraa!!! ra7 nt7acha bel mwthou3 !!! al7een wela b3daain


i didn't say a word


got into the car

drove back home



when i arrived home


i called ali


he answered


ali: ga3d ystajwbony!!!

i heard "ga3d t7acheeik mneraa?"


ali: wait


seconds..


ali: aloo

me: alo

ali: t7achy 6al3t barra 3anhom

me: i hate you !!!

ali: mnera listen walla maknt adre byrj3oon

me: al7een wen awady wayhe ?? fashla!!

ali:  gtlich 3adi mara7 ysawon shay 7grehom

me: noooo!!!! walla tgul 7g oboy ana atwaq3 kel shay menha

ali: shd3wa la latkhafeen

me: 7aail tenarfazt

ali: i'm sorry

me: huhhh nevermind im gonna sleep now gabl la trja3 a7lam

ali: ok goodnight

me: gn


i closed the phone took a shower and slept




the next day I woke up


I went to the bathroom got out called the maid tyebly breakfast


stayed in my room till 3 pm

then a7lam came


well I cant tell her that ali is not my bf

so I said

that we are together now

and I didn't want to hug him bs gh9abny


a7lam: allah ykhlekom 7g ba3th

me: hh amen

a7lam: 3ad matfkren 7g b3dain???

me: sure

a7lam: yla bs kbrtw wayh zwaj enty

me: ok bs khn9aker elmwtho3

a7lam: *laughing*tst7en?

me: jad stop it

a7lam: inzain













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"mnera?"



"mneraaa?"


"hellloooo???"


"manoooor"

me: haaa??

zaina: come on wake up

me: why?

zaina: because i'm here

me: so?

zaina: you cant leave me alone waiting for u to wake up

me: uh ok

i woke up went to the bathroom and stayed with zaina

days passed

and im so close with zaina more than i was with aisha



we spend all the day with each other

everyday

every minute



once...



i was thinking


i love zaina


but as what?


friend ??


best friend??


sister??


or more??



i just don't know what is going on..



i love her...


i love her...


i love her...



i want her!!...


no no no its a wrong idea!!

what the fuck im talkin about?

why i'm i thinking about!!

i'm losing my mind


hey, why not? she's beautiful , funny simply ''perfect''


and she want me...

naaaahhh




forget all those bullshit





the next day


i accidentally  showed her than i'm having crush on her..


i guess she felt and knew



and the next day


she talked to me and i told her how i feel ....










i might be crazy but i want to do this!!




uh wait !!! i'm lesbian ??

i used to hate them!


now i'm one of them..










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sorry guys for not posting but i'm back again

and i guess the next chapter will be the end

love you all xox

CHAPTER 27

i didn't see his face yet

..

that guy kissed his grandpa forehead

and turned around at me









................






.................





.............



he is

.....




ali !!!


he gave me a look

he was shocked

so was i




he never stopped staring at me

.. well me too


a7lam noticed that

she looked at me and smiled

i gave her "what?;s" look and turned my face


we ate dinner and then sat all together chatting and laughing


then almost all the guys and girls as my age taqreban sat and played deal


ali: manur tl3ben?

me: mm okay

he moved and gave me space to sit next to him

i sat

played with them

ali: ooh bass fal elle3b , manor bashof el Bentley

everyone laughed

ali's cousin: eeh eeh ro7 roo7 looseer amby mra w7da tfoz

ali: y3ne funny?

ali's cousin: eeh funny

ali: walla ay funny emshay mnera

me: okaayh

i took the car's key

and went with him

a7lam : shbenhoom

someone replied : eeh jedamna ashkara

everyone laughed

i was with him in the car

he turned the car on

me: wen bnro7

ali: wen tabeen w ana 7ather

me: aby starbucks

ali: afa 3allich a9erlich starbucks

me: aww *blushing*


while we were in the car

he held my hand

i smiled



......


a7lam called me

a7lam: manour wainch?

me: ray7een starbucks

a7lam: sh3ndkiom?

me: ali bejarb el car w glt khan ro7 starbucks mshtahya white mocha

a7lam: aahaa yeboly weyakom

me: shnu taben?

a7lam: coffee latte

me: ok

a7lam: yalla dero balikom bye

me: ok bbbye

i closed the phone and turned the music on

the day ended

we arrived home at 12 w shy




the next day

i woke up and knew that a7lam is not here

never mind


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4 pm

ali called

he told me that a7lam and his mother

talked to him about me

"shrayik b mnera''

"7lwa 9a7?"

"ashofik ams bs ga3d m3aha"

"w m6ale3ha b3d"

"laykon mu3jab feha?"

"etha tabeha gol 3ade"


he didn't answer them the answers they expected







"la shaku"






was his answer to all the  1543767090909 questions they asked him



me: ambeeh 7asw!!

ali: eeh

me: i told you ashkara bs enta tetlazaag ufff

ali: 3ade shfeich

me: tgul 7g oboy wala shy

ali: ya 3amee tara ohma free

me: shlun

ali: khalty a7lam w omy w bajy khalaty yadron 3n my cousin sara enha tkalim

me: oh 9ij !! shloun sakten 3ade

ali; eeh 3ade

me: eeh?

ali: b3den oboha 6a7 3leha w khtha menha her iphone w khala el blackberry malha

me: bs? ay shy

ali: eh fa etha drw 3na mara7 yswolich shy

me; bs latgul maby

ali: okay lat5afen shraych tyen next friday

me; HAHAHA tha7ktny la yuba b3den 7aail shkara mu al7in

ali: y3l bachofich bachir

me: mm la sunday magdr khlha tuesday

ali: okay





so on tuesday



i woke up around 4 took a shower ate cornfalkes and went to my room

dressed up got ready

and waited for ali to pick me up

dad traveled the day before and a7lam was sleeping

he came after 20 minutes

and i was angry because he was late


i got in his car

me: testa3bi6?

ali: kan my car's key thay3 shasawy!

me; aku a7d ythay3 mfta7 syarta?

ali: eeh ana

me: yahil

ali: mnera shfech ?

me: btgatheha hwash

ali: entay bdetaay

me: m6awel?

ali: huffffff

me: shhal cd elkhayes

ali: mu 3ajbtich el songs ely feh?

me: la 36ne el usb

ali: hach


ali: manoor !! 3bdal7aleem !! ! entaay shno qadema

me: 7lwaaa

ali: ghyraay

me: enzaain


ali: la7tha wen nro7??

we decided after 30 minuets of arguing to his house

ali: lat5afeen mako a7d bl baait

me: ali akhaf

ali: dont be khala9 .7ta elkhadm mar7 maydrun 3nich their rooms fog

me: huhh ok

we stayed in his room


8 pm


me: t3al wen your husky ?

ali: taben?

me: eeh

ali: ok

he brought the dog

he wasn't nice at all

at first

he was quiet when i got closer to him

he tried to bite my toes

when i felt his  tongue

i screamed

and ran

he chased me

and ali
sat on his bed and laughed at me

me: ALIII HEELP!!!1


AAALLIIIIII IT'S NOT FUNNY

I SWEAR IM GONNA CRY NOW

i jumped on the bed

and held ali's back

me: WAKHRAAA I FUCKING HATE YOUU

ali: i just can't stop laughing okaay okaay
he kicked his dog out of the room

me: waay3 i hate youu

ali: sorry but i couldn't
lu shayfa shaklichh

me: chub you're not funny !!

ali: okaay i'm sorry

he hugged me

and kissed my forehead

ali; i was kidding

before he lets go of me

the door opened



i pushed him

and turned around to see who opened the door








and its...


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CHAPTER 26

"halla walla"






me: halla feich


"manour I'm so happy that you forgot what happened "




me: its okay i cant leave my best friend for a stupid thing maybe its just a crush and i'm sure you're over

zaina: yeaaah umm well...

Me: eh?

zaina: so movies night?

me: horror movies !!!

zaina: okaaay

me: so lets go to buy movies junk food and dinner

zaina: ok half hour w ana 3nd betkum

me; i'll go dress up bye

zaina: bbye


i dressed took my phone and wallet and went down stairs

when i heard zaina's car horn i went out and found her

we went by 7 and arrived home at 9

we ate subway watched movies till 3 am


the last movie was paranormal activity 3

we closed the tv so we can sleep

zaina: manur ?

me : hmmm?

zaina: sm3t 9out ykhare3

me: shnu?

zaina: chena a7d was walking near your room

me: masm3t

zaina: emballah ..

*loud noise*  ka sm3ty?

me: eeh  right behind me as if someone threw a rock at the wall

zaina: yummaaa bared beitna

me: maku shy yemkn shy madry bs don't be afraid

zaina: i swear I'm gonna cry right now if you don't check what it was !

me: hufff okay

zaina came with me to check what that noise was

we started to walk slowly
out of my room
trying to figure out what that noise was

we went downstairs to the kitchen
we didn't find anybody there

me: maku shay

zaina: waay emshay foug

me: okaay

we went backk to my room

zaina: t'hagen ghost ?

me: maybe..

zaina: baytkom ykhare3 9adgeny fe ynanwa

me: hshhh

zaina whispered : shnu?

me: i heard like someone was screaming

zaina: uhhhh aaah yumaaaa

*she was shaking and terrified*

i laughed soo harddd

me: yal 9aida ag9 3alich no one screamed uh god i can't stop laughing

zaina: 7ywaanaaa!!!!

me: joking bs 9ij there's something in our house

zaina: I'm not believing you anymore

me: 9ij i swear

zaina : shloun ?

me: last week i woke up in the middle of the night unable to move felt like something was on my chest or someone was holding my back and head
i had hard time breathing i tried to scream for help but nothing would came out
i was so terrified, i closed my eyes really tight and started praying a few seconds later i opened my eyes and could finally move it lasted for a minutes taqreban
i had trouble going back to sleep for a few days 9ij 7ail kheft...

zaina: hatha yathoum

me: what ??

zaina: hatha yathum y3ne ynanwa swaw chethy feych bs 3ady y9er 7g wayd nas maybe u ate a lot before u sleep

me: la maknt makla wayd

zaina: what was ur dinner ?

me: maki .. and pizza ;$

zaina: la mu makla wayd mashallah 3laich

me: y3ne i saw the pizza i couldn't help my self !!!  pepperoni and cheese pizza!!!

zaina: i'm hungry

me: pizza!!

zaina: for sure!

i called pizza hut ordered and ate around 4 am

then we slept till 4 pm

and woke up finding zaina having fight with the others "shikha lulu hessa"

me: whats happening ?

zaina: they got mad because we didn't tell them about yesterday

me: how did they find out?

zaina: we posted pictures on instagram last night!

me: eh 9a7 i forgot  whatever emshay nakel lunch

me and zaina ate lunch with dad and stepmother a7lam

zaina mentioned what we heard last night

dad laughed : i was in the kitchen

me: nzlna machfnak

dad: eeh 6al3t 3ogbha w rdet chftkom 6alben pizza

zaina: waay 7ail kheft

a7lam: ya 7elwich zayoon

zaina*blushing*

a7lam: manur bachr tyen m3ay 3end ahaly

me: shaku


...

i mean ma3refhom

a7lam: wedhum ychofonch wayd agolhom 3anich jamela w mu2adba

me: thank you .. mm.. achuf etha gedart

a7lam: latgolen achuf abe el akeed

dad: ro7y shwarach

me: okay.. party? 3azema? wela zuwara?

a7lam: zuwara

me: khala9 ok

after that day

friday

10 am

a7lam woke me up

a7lam: mnera yala wake up enty et6wlen 3ala matkhal9en

me; MMMM ok 10 minutes

a7lam: oboy y76un ghadah "lunch" 3al 12 la nt2akhar

me: huf maly kheelggg

a7lam: gomy yalla

me: enzain

i woke up took a shower

 applied some make up
 made my hair straight
i wore white dress and took my chanel boy bag and  my black chanel flat
and wore my accessories

a7lam: yallah ana ta7t

me: ok

a7lam: wen el driver ?

me: laysh driver ana asog

a7lam: oboch wada your car nesetay

me: I'll drive his car

a7lam: akhaf mat3rfelaha

me: :) ??

a7lam: yalla ok

i took my dad's car and went with a7lam

we arrived

went inside

ate lunch

it was my first time meeting her family

they were nice to me

while eating desserts

one of her cousins was talking on the phone i guess she was talking to her son


the woman:

 7abeby yadik m3a9ib lysh mayet 3al ghada
...
khala9 ta3al eg3ad len el3sha b3den ro7
...
ok  ta3al kelhom hny yan6ronik
...
yala m3a elsalama

a7lam: wallah fegdna

she turned to me

a7lam: mashallah 3ala waldha shno damah khafeef  "she meant that he's so funny''

minutes later

that women: ta3al shof yadik ro7 rathah "say sorry to him"

i didn't see his face yet

he said " malt mnu el Bentley "

a7lam: ana

the guy: men muta ? mabrook

his mother: la malt rayelha

the guy: oooh muta gemtay tsogen?

a7lam : *laughing* la benty yaybatny bsayart oboha

"benty? since when I'm her daughter?"

anyway

that guy kissed his grandpa forehead

and turned around at me

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CHAPTER 25

mins later m33 called me


and what he told me something very shocking



m33: manoor

me: la7tha khan akmilk elsalfa

m33: MNEEERRRAAAA

me: shnu shfeik

he interrupted me


m33: A7BIIIICHHHHH

me: thank you khan aki..

m33: khaly salftich shwy A7BICH I LOVE YOU I MEAN IT A7BICH A7BICH

me: woho wait really?

m33: EEEEEE thats why i didn't talk to your bf because i want you to break up with him I WANT YOU FOR ME ONLY FOR ME!

me: oh wait laysh kl shy fj2a

m33: men 3arftich w i fell for you oo i decided to tell you that lama kna bel hamra bs ur bf

me: oh well i really don't know what to say..

m33: take your time thinking

me; okay ..

...

...

m33: chena 9ar awkward?

me: *laughing* eeh

m33: eh shnu salftich tara masm3t'ha

me: al7een 9arly sa3a ashr7 w a3ed w agolik fahmt tgol eh

m33: *laughingg* sorry kent afkr muta agolich that i love you

me: uh never mind i'm gonna sleep now

m33: la laysh

me: daykha sorry yalla goodnight

m33: uh okay sleep tight and good night

i closed the phone and directly slept 


the next night i called m7amd "my bf"

me: chan agolaha .. ma7amd ?

...

me: m7amad alo ? weyay?

m7amd: ha eh

me: shfeik?

m7amd: wala shy

me: shfeik mnafs 3ley

m7amd: mnu gal?

me: ana 7asa..

m7amd: la

me: mmm

m7amd: shwy w adg 3alich

me: laysh wen btro7?

m7amd: bkalm 9a7by 3n shy ma6wl

me: ok waiting


he closed the phone

he's not the same anymore

i can feel it 

there's something ..

but i didn't do anything that would make him mad at me

its just ...

He doesn't love me anymore..

although the big love i have for him

4 or more years..

i can't hate him

Maybe he found a new girl?

maybe he's bored of me...



1 hour later

he didn't call

so i called

busy...

half hour later

Busy..

i was very angry 

that my face turned red

so i called m33


w i told him that i broke up with my bf m7amd and i want to be with him

and he was happy

we chatted on the phone all night long

till 3 am

i closed it

1 min ,,

m7amd my bf called

me: halla?

m7amd: mnu t7achen le hal 7aza !!1 adg 3alich million marra busy eshfe..

me: my friend

m7amd: la walla?

me: matbe t9adg as u like ana banam goodnight

he closed the phone


the day after i went out with shaikha

to eat breakfast out

chatting and chatting
i accidentally told her about zaina and what lulu told me ..


shaikha: ambeh way3 lulu chathaba ehya ely mayta 3ala zaina w tgol ana abeha what the hell 

me: madry khala9 never mind

shaikha: 9ej walla ehya tadren cham marra galt 7ag zaina w zaina maknt taneha maknt tfaker this way kelish bs kela menha a9ln ehya ely mkharbatna !

me: oh

shaikha:  chathaba wey3 a9ln lal7enha tabe zaina w twa gaylatlha gabl cham month

me: 9ej?

shaikha: eeh bs mu tgulen!!!

me: eh ok


at 6 pm


i went out with hessa and nour

and yeah  accidentally i told them about zaina , shaikha and lulu ::


hessa: a9ln both of shikha and lulu men zman ybon zaina

nour: laa ...

hessa: embala

me: uh never mind

nour: wey3 mu 3shan zaina has beautiful face y3ne lazim t7benha

hessa: shdrany 3nhom tara my dad called me w lazim aro7 now

nour: ok then bye

me: bbye

when hessa left me and nour alone 

nour told me that all the group wants zaian even hessa

uhh its complicated 

anyway

week after i called m7amd jmy bf and broke up with him


and i'm officially m33's girl friend 

but i don't love him as much as i loved m7amd


we started to go out with each other chat all the time

and yeah about ali 

We're still  friends , best friends !

but he don't know about m33 and m7amd

CHAPTER 24

I called him
 
 
me: hallaa
  m33: halla shfeich?

  me: amm busy? super bored? mumken afham shloun *laughing*

  m33: hehe ha? shtaben al7een *laughing*

 
  me; *laughing* haa?? tewahag elba6al

  m7amd laughed 
  m33: eshfeeech?

  me: lish matbe t7achy m7amd tgola ena we're just friends
  m33: hatha mawtho3ech??? 7adch tafha
  me; yeah tafha 3al aqal I'm wasting your time instead of being bored doing nothing mu?


m33: hhhh i ...... mu ela a7achy..

me: ela 

m33: enzain maby a7achy shluun * laugh * 



me: whyyyy??


m33: baaass
 
  me: amm....
  
  m33: 7safa kharb 3alena, can i see you in another time?

  me: nah i don't think so
  m33: why?

 
  me: bs


  m33: you can come to my house 3shan laydre your boyfriend

  me: la bs i don't want



m33: ok



silence ..
  me: so..?
 
  m33: bye
  me: bye :s
   i closed the phone


what the hell??


what's wrong with him?



the next day , me and m7amd decided to go out

and we're still thinking where can we meet each other


m7amd: tyen baytna?

me: hmm..

m7amd: ooh la 97 elyoum bezorona i cant nkhaleha after tomorrow ?

me: oh okay bs laysh mu tomorrow?

m7amd: tomorrow dad's coming back from germany

me: eeh 9a7 nsayt khala9 ok


............


...........




i called shaikha to go out

and she said okay



6 pm

shaikha called me and said she's waiting outside

and i'm not done yet


so they waited for like 20mins 


then i went out to them 

when i got into the car


i found zaina !

 sitting

in the front seat 


i couldn't say anything

so i sat and made my self busy with the phone




shaikha is driving : wen nro777??
 
  lulu: ana yu3ana craving pink pasta emshw chocolate bar elbed3?

shaikha: good choice shraykum?

me: um ok

and the rest were okay withe idea

as i was sitting near the door behind zaina

 when i catch zaina looking at me i give her a look and turn my face

when we arrived and ordered food and  ate

she tried to be my friend again

lulu talked to me

lulu: manur emshy m3ay starbucks

me: ok

while walking

lulu: what's wrong with you and zaina?

me: nothing

lulu: goly yala

me: uh ok .. well she wants me to be her girl friend

lulu: waay cute !

me: cute ? cute b3ainch what the fuck? wen ga3den

lulu: give her a chance

me: shfeych enty elthanya ?

lulu: madry i mean khala9 never mind .. at least be her friend again

me: um ok, i'll think about it

but ...


hey la7tha lysh cute w laysh tabeny a9er her gf?


lulu: let me tell you something,,

me: talk

lulu: shaikha kant tabe zaina

me: WHAT?

lulu: eeeh mu bas shikha

me: mnu ba3ad?

lulu: nas

me: eh mnu?

lulu: mu lazim t3rfen

me: enzain kmly

lulu: fa don't tell the others about it

me: oh okayh

lulu took a drink and after we went back to the girls


i was thinking about what lulu said and i said to my self i'll be her friend again

i chatted with her and she was realllyy happy




12 am

i arrived home


and i charged my iphone

mins later m33 called me




and what i found out was something shocking , it really shocked me !


it was ...