over-thinking is killing me
i cant live in his lie anymore
i cant see my mom like this
she doesn't know whats happening behind her
im trying to find a way that i can let her know this
but i don't want something bad to happen
cause they are my parents i love them
so i decided
and i will do it
12 am
finally my parents came back
i was in the room
telling my self
" i can do it"
" i will do it"
...
....
....
i went to their room
my mom was sitting on the bed talking to grandma
my dad wasn't there
as soon as she closed the phone i told her
" yuma ana lazem agolch"
mom: shetgolen?
me: oboy ...
mom: shfee?
me: he's cheating in you
my mom was so shocked that her mouth was open
the way i told her was really stupid
mom: entay shga3ed tgolen?
suddenly my dad popped
" ENTAY SHETGOLEEEEEN?"
yelling at me
he was in the bathroom
fuck am i that stupid i forgot that maybe he will be in the bathroom
wrong time
wrong place
wrong way to say it
me: ana ga3d agol el9ij!!
mom: shlun?
me: i heared him talking to a girl in the middle of the night walla sma3ta
mom: "laughed" ana kent ga3d a7achy
dad: khalay 3endch theqa feny
me: whaaat ?? yuma walla el3athem w tahawsht ma3ah w gale ena ga3d y7achy rfeja!
mom: ana knt daga 3aleh elfayer gabl cham youm
it shows that the night after maybe mom called dad but she wouldn't believe me
both of them shouted at me
i cried
but i'm not that weak !
i'm gonna let her believe me
i took my daddy's phone
i told him to open it
he did
the truth is he wasn't afraid !
i searched "خلف بو2"
"not found"
crap ! he changed it
suddenly i "dad's phone" received a whatsapp message
from "العنزي فهد"
its says
"حبيبي"
"وينك"
"رديت البيت"
neyahaha
got youuuu
i opened the chat
w i showed mom everything !
she really was shocked
when i saw the tear that fell from my mom's eye
i regretted doing this
i really don't know why the hell did i do that
whats wrong with me
i knew that mom isn't strong enough to know the truth
i blew up everything
they had a fight and my mom went out of the house
12 and half am !!!
dad: 12 belail ween btro7een??
mom: wakher 3anyyy
and shes gone .....
dad: sheftay shsawetaaay?
i gave him my back and went to my room
i tried to call mom but i knew after that she forgot her phone in the house
huhhhhh
" what have i done?''
"i wish i could run"
"away from this ship going under"
"im just trying to help"
"by showing the truth"
"i just hurt everyone else"
"i feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulder"
"what can i do ?"
"i just want to fix it''
"can i start again?"
"my best intentions keeps making a mess of things"
"i have to stay and face my mistakes"
" how can i get stronger and wiser to get through this?"
"my good isn't good enough "
"where can i find someone who will see how much i care"
"its another night of tears"
i cried as hard as i could
i don't care how loud it was
i woke-up the next day
i went to the bathroom
when i got out
i found my parents in the living room
my mom was crying
i blew up everything
when i came
mom hugged dad
and now they are ok!
she got mad at him just for a one night?
is that all she can do?
and now she trusts him again?
its over!
i want them to be back together
but there fight lasted for 1 night
maybe he didn't leave that girl
huffff if i catch him again !!!!.......
day passed normally
today is the first day at my collage #cba
i was afraid
waayyeed mu shwaya
i had to let my parents drive me there
and i dont know the way too!
when i was in the car
watching the girls and boys
my heart rate raised
me; mabyy aroo77 akhaaaaf
dad: shnu tkhafen ? chena awal youm belmadresa
me: akhaaf
mom: samay w yala nezlay
me: mabyyy
both my parents laughed
mom: yalla nezlay manor khala9 kebarty e3tamday 3ala nafsch
i don't know why kent 7AAIL khayfa!
tear fell from my eye
dad; "laughed so hard"
tabecheen? men 9ij? shnu ykhare3 bel-jam3a?
me: madry wen arou7 ma adl ma a3rf shasawe mabyyy
mom: haw manoor men 9ijch tabchen yalla 3ad la tetdal3een
this conversation went up by letting both my mom and dad to drive me to the class
i wasn't embarrassed of me walking with my parents in the collage just like a little girl
on her first day at school
i held my moms hand
me: yuma b6ny y3wrney
mom: 3adee
dad: shofay elnas sh7alathom maykhafon 3ade maku shay
me: yumma baraje3 yumaaaaa
we ran to the bathroom
and of course dad asked everyone where is the restroom
till we went there
but i didn't throw-up
my parents walked to me to the class
dakhlt ga3adt with the other girls and the doc was there
when i sat
i saw mom&dad wore waving to me and smiling
doc "laughed" law sma7taw
and they are gone
i hid my face
i was embarrassed when they did such a stupid thing!
lol
anyway
at the gathering
, friday
after lunch
while eating dessert
my mom said what happened to everyone and they laughed so hard
i chatted with aisha
me: 3awash yousef yabeny a6la3 ma3ah elyoum
aisha: 6el3ay
me; hmm madryy
aisha: w ana bchuf 3aziz ba3d
me: 3ad wen nro7
aisha: walla madryy
........
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http://ask.fm/thereisnochance
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i cant live in his lie anymore
i cant see my mom like this
she doesn't know whats happening behind her
im trying to find a way that i can let her know this
but i don't want something bad to happen
cause they are my parents i love them
so i decided
and i will do it
12 am
finally my parents came back
i was in the room
telling my self
" i can do it"
" i will do it"
...
....
....
i went to their room
my mom was sitting on the bed talking to grandma
my dad wasn't there
as soon as she closed the phone i told her
" yuma ana lazem agolch"
mom: shetgolen?
me: oboy ...
mom: shfee?
me: he's cheating in you
my mom was so shocked that her mouth was open
the way i told her was really stupid
mom: entay shga3ed tgolen?
suddenly my dad popped
" ENTAY SHETGOLEEEEEN?"
yelling at me
he was in the bathroom
fuck am i that stupid i forgot that maybe he will be in the bathroom
wrong time
wrong place
wrong way to say it
me: ana ga3d agol el9ij!!
mom: shlun?
me: i heared him talking to a girl in the middle of the night walla sma3ta
mom: "laughed" ana kent ga3d a7achy
dad: khalay 3endch theqa feny
me: whaaat ?? yuma walla el3athem w tahawsht ma3ah w gale ena ga3d y7achy rfeja!
mom: ana knt daga 3aleh elfayer gabl cham youm
it shows that the night after maybe mom called dad but she wouldn't believe me
both of them shouted at me
i cried
but i'm not that weak !
i'm gonna let her believe me
i took my daddy's phone
i told him to open it
he did
the truth is he wasn't afraid !
i searched "خلف بو2"
"not found"
crap ! he changed it
suddenly i "dad's phone" received a whatsapp message
from "العنزي فهد"
its says
"حبيبي"
"وينك"
"رديت البيت"
neyahaha
got youuuu
i opened the chat
w i showed mom everything !
she really was shocked
when i saw the tear that fell from my mom's eye
i regretted doing this
i really don't know why the hell did i do that
whats wrong with me
i knew that mom isn't strong enough to know the truth
i blew up everything
they had a fight and my mom went out of the house
12 and half am !!!
dad: 12 belail ween btro7een??
mom: wakher 3anyyy
and shes gone .....
dad: sheftay shsawetaaay?
i gave him my back and went to my room
i tried to call mom but i knew after that she forgot her phone in the house
huhhhhh
" what have i done?''
"i wish i could run"
"away from this ship going under"
"im just trying to help"
"by showing the truth"
"i just hurt everyone else"
"i feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulder"
"what can i do ?"
"i just want to fix it''
"can i start again?"
"my best intentions keeps making a mess of things"
"i have to stay and face my mistakes"
" how can i get stronger and wiser to get through this?"
"my good isn't good enough "
"where can i find someone who will see how much i care"
"its another night of tears"
i cried as hard as i could
i don't care how loud it was
i woke-up the next day
i went to the bathroom
when i got out
i found my parents in the living room
my mom was crying
i blew up everything
when i came
mom hugged dad
and now they are ok!
she got mad at him just for a one night?
is that all she can do?
and now she trusts him again?
its over!
i want them to be back together
but there fight lasted for 1 night
maybe he didn't leave that girl
huffff if i catch him again !!!!.......
day passed normally
today is the first day at my collage #cba
i was afraid
waayyeed mu shwaya
i had to let my parents drive me there
and i dont know the way too!
when i was in the car
watching the girls and boys
my heart rate raised
me; mabyy aroo77 akhaaaaf
dad: shnu tkhafen ? chena awal youm belmadresa
me: akhaaf
mom: samay w yala nezlay
me: mabyyy
both my parents laughed
mom: yalla nezlay manor khala9 kebarty e3tamday 3ala nafsch
i don't know why kent 7AAIL khayfa!
tear fell from my eye
dad; "laughed so hard"
tabecheen? men 9ij? shnu ykhare3 bel-jam3a?
me: madry wen arou7 ma adl ma a3rf shasawe mabyyy
mom: haw manoor men 9ijch tabchen yalla 3ad la tetdal3een
this conversation went up by letting both my mom and dad to drive me to the class
i wasn't embarrassed of me walking with my parents in the collage just like a little girl
on her first day at school
i held my moms hand
me: yuma b6ny y3wrney
mom: 3adee
dad: shofay elnas sh7alathom maykhafon 3ade maku shay
me: yumma baraje3 yumaaaaa
we ran to the bathroom
and of course dad asked everyone where is the restroom
till we went there
but i didn't throw-up
my parents walked to me to the class
dakhlt ga3adt with the other girls and the doc was there
when i sat
i saw mom&dad wore waving to me and smiling
doc "laughed" law sma7taw
and they are gone
i hid my face
i was embarrassed when they did such a stupid thing!
lol
anyway
at the gathering
, friday
after lunch
while eating dessert
my mom said what happened to everyone and they laughed so hard
i chatted with aisha
me: 3awash yousef yabeny a6la3 ma3ah elyoum
aisha: 6el3ay
me; hmm madryy
aisha: w ana bchuf 3aziz ba3d
me: 3ad wen nro7
aisha: walla madryy
........
---------------
@thereisnochance
http://ask.fm/thereisnochance
please leave a comment
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